i have to...

i have to buck up n run the race...
i have to take up the heavy textbooks n start revising...
i have to be ready for the arrows that are coming on my way...
i have to really change from the inside out...
i have to learn how to be a good fren...
i have to learn not to be selfish...
i have to learn to love others as others love me...
i have to surrender all that i am to God...
i have to be obidient...
i have to learn how to be humble...
i have to repent from all my ways...
i have to live with the reality...
i have to start leaning upon God...
i have to think positive n look to God...
i have to split myself into two...
i have to not feel regretful over the things that i have done...
i have to do loads of homework...
i have to take up 'the responsibility'...
i have to start seeking God in the rite manner...
i have to ace all my papers in SPM...
i have to be prepared for SPM...
i have to be prepared for competition...
i have to be prepared for alot of stressfulness...
i have to stop playing n start studying...
i have to stop blogging all day long...
i can only blog twice a week...
i have to quit onlining...
i have to be happy eventhough i am sad i have to do all these...