soul-cheq

its been awhile since i ever did a soul-cheq...
n as u can see, my postings are quite side-tracked compared to the previous few...
hmmm, actually i came out with this blog to tell the passers-by about God n who He really is... but it kinda talks about me so my aim for this blog kinda bangged into the wall la...
so now, i am gonna get back to the mission of telling u ppl about Jesus la...*duh*

hah, so lets start with an average teenage life...
life aint that easy as wat it seems to others...
ppl often say that study life is the best n so on but we in skool are dying to grow up...haha :)
well, i am just an average skool girl having average grades n still hoping to get better grades without studying...haha >.<
on the other hand, i aint that close to God as what u ppl might see it la... i am seriously dissapointed in myself before this...
ever since the past few weeks listening to the camp CDs, i got very serious with God...
all these time i had forsaken Him n now i want to get close to Him??
isnt it unfair for Him...just neglecting Him when i dont need Him n just run back to Him whenever i face critical challenges...
i really failed Him over n over again but He had never ever forsaken us...
it is just not worth for Him to suffer all the heart aches all along seeing His children in this world goin after the things of this evil world...
how can God's love be so BIG n MARVELOUS...
just imagine la, will u ever give up your own precious son just to save the world...
n yet, He did... His love is so vast... nothing can compare to it...
for me even to give up watching tv is so hard...how about giving up my own son *if i ever have a son*... all the hardship i go thru raising him up n yet i have let him go... argh it is hard...
try putting yourself in God's shoes... how does God feel??
seeing us fall n get cheated by this world... n the truth is just rite infront of us...
we are so blinded n weak n frail... but these can all pass away when we find thruth in Christ Jesus... He is the Way, the Truth n the Life.... He is all that we need...
i feel that i am really dissapointed in myself...
getting myself trap in the lies of the enemy while i have God in me but i rejected Him...
the truth is already in me n yet i fall... fall all over n over again...
i am so sick of sinning towards God...
dont you think God is fed-up with us constantly asking for forgiveness when we repeat the same sin 1000000000000 times...
n He for gives us no matter wat...but is it fair for Him to do this for us...
let this be a great challenge for us to not sin towards God anymore...
it is hard but God is always there to help us...
call unto Him n He will answer us....

i just wanna get over sin n live a life that is pleasing to Him...
i always repeat the same old sentence but it is hard...
but i am sure God is leading me...
i dont wanna treat God the way i treat Him before...
i wanna make Him proud n i wanna be the person who claims my generation for Him...
it is a big dream, i noe...but nothing is impossible for God...
i want to be submerged in the presence n love of God...
i wanna tell the people how great God's love for us...
n it is really awesome... no one could ever love us as much as He does...
i really am gonna take up my cross n walk this land for Christ...
i cant do this on my own but God is with me...
i hope that all of us christian youths will just open our eyes n see the reality...
dont be trapped in the lies of the enemy n dont fall back into the sin that God has forgiven u from...
i hope that we all have the same vision to tell ppl about Christ n i hope u ppl will join me in this mission..