*random-ness*

these few weeks had been hard for me to go thru...
haih... i realize that sometimes ppl might feel differently than wat you feel bout yourself...
n of coz if someone comments bout me i wud try to change n accept it le...
but sometimes it is hard...

i had these so-called character cheqs by my mom le the past few weeks..
of coz its some kinda nagging to me ler... u noe le children are like that wan...
anyway, it was so hard to accept what she said about me...
i dont feel like i am the person she say i am...
i am so frustrated n confused...
cant she see that i cant be perfect... as if le she very perfect lidat...
sometimes ppl see things in us but don't they realize that we also see things bout them??
odd isnt it... why ppl can tell us their views bout us n yet they cant accept the views of others bout them...
i dont get it why she has to discourage me rather than to give me her fullest support on the things that i do...
i am so faking my life here...just like putting on a mask...
everyday is like...gladz is very funny n lame n stuff like dat but deep in side it hurts at time...
i mean that i am what i am but sometimes i just close up all my sorrows deep within me...

everytime when i ask God to break me n mould me to be a person with good character n bla bla bla..
am i really wanting to change??
when i want God to teach me to be a person that has good qualities...
am i letting Him teach or am i just listening but not acting to it???
i really want to change no matter in watsoever character i am...
to be better le of coz... but i need Your help Lord...

hehe... actually i feel that i am a total fake ler...
you see me differently at home n when i go to school i am sort of a different kinda gladz n in church i feel like i am another different kinda gladz... i feel so knocked out n frustrated about the change in character in different environment n fwens...
it is so sickening to act being innocent n good in front of your fwens while you yourself at home bash up your sis n scold your mom,rite...
ummm, i dont mean that i am that kinda person...but sometimes i am le but not till the bashing up of sisters n scoldoing mom le...haha :)
i am still quai but am i truly a quai person???
i want to know my real character... at times you might get confused of who you really are...
the change of various masks sinks the true character n face that God had given unto us...
isnt God sad to see that why His creation dont appreciate the charater He had planted in us but turn to masks to hide their true feelings n characters...
if i am God i will truly be sad in the bottom of my heart...

now, i dont wanna make God sad anymore n i really wanna be what God has made me to be like...
i dont care whether u say that i take advantage of ppl n also sell fish... i dont mind...
if u see me that way then let it be... but i still wanna change le so pls tell me if i am one...
but if i show u wat u are like i hope that you can take it too...
no hard feeling le coz we are meant to teach each other n mould each other to be more Christ-like mer...

hah...finally it is out from my herat wat i truly felt...
i guess this is all for today le...
see you ppl in ignite tonite n take care fellow readers...
Have an awesome n great day finding out who you really are n God Bless You!!!

I AM BACK!!!! wo-hooo....
so, did u ppl miss me??? i am sure u did...everyone misses me...harhar *perasaning - just kidding*
anyway, as you can go read my last few postings... i stated that i was goin for a camp le...
so today, i am gonna walk you thru all the stuff i learnt n went thru at camp...

>>>scene 1 (day 1)>>>
ok... so where is this camp held at???
it is actually held at the Christian Convention Centre (CCC), batu feringghi le...
too bad cant go out to batu feringghi to buy cetak rompak n sun-glasses plus all the awesome slippers... haih :(
anyway, day 1 was quite calm ler...not much but the games was quite fun ler..
got to mix with loads of new fwens from different schools n churches...
as always ler... i was the totally crazy n wacky one among them...
but fortunately, i found a few who are crazier n wackier than me...haha :)
we had some workshops... n we were split into groups ler...
i was in the red team... *GO RED HAWKS*
i attended the stomping workshop... it was awesome ler..
super fun... n get to learn how to do creative stuff n also dancing ler..
the sermon was great n it was conducted by one of the youth pastors from PCC...
her sharing was super funny n enjoyable...
well, meL had to go for the Hillsong concert...so she left with viviEn...
n did i mention, she had to call her mom to speak with the camp co-ordinator in order for her to leave the campus... n it took her 30 min or more to get thru to her mom... haiz... i am so dissapointed in u meL...
i actually slept at like 2 a.m. the firts nite le... oni got 4 hours of sleep T.T *sobs*

>>>>scene 2 (day 2)>>>>
so, it was early in the morning at about 6 a.m.... the toilets were hogged by loads of girls...
actually i was one of them ler... nyek nyek...
then, breakfast lo... actually the food there is nice le... no complains except for the water...
the water got some kinda taste ler... who cares actually...
anyway, the morning session was taken over by one of the PCC youth leaders, wilson...
he was super funny as well ler...
then we had our workshops... i went for the guitar workshop ler...
WOW... i tell u... WOW!!! it was a fun class ler... learnt a lot of stuff bot the guitar...considering me as a beginner still le... hmmm, n i dont know much bout me guitar... *saddening nia*
actually, the teacher was also from PCC ler...
his name is geoffrey a.k.a geography... haha :P *hope i got the spelling rite*
there were 2 teachers ler but he was teaching beginners ler...
n i tell you... their guitar skills are superb ler... their standard is super high...hehe :]
then, games lo... fun ler...games sure fun wan mer... hehe :)
then, we went for wash up n then service again lo...
after service... we had our main activity which is the masquarade...
it was super fun... n each group were suppose to present a skete le...
the funniest skete was from the yellow team...
coz the leader was a super wacky person ler... n he is also very creative le...
after that it was suppose to be lights out de ler... but we cho siau in the dorm le...
n it was some how the last nite de so we all planned to stay up till morning but our mission failed le...
everyone was like exchanging contact numbers n e-mail addresses... which was a normal sight in most camps le...
then, sarah, renee n eunice came to our dorm to play some songs ler which sarah composed for a cockroach...
it was kinda funny n super creative lo...
then, they were called back to their dorms coz it was quite early de... it was 1.30 lidat ler... so early rite..
i slept at about 2 a.m.... which is another 4 hours of sleep nia :(

>>>>scene 3 (day 3)>>>>
haih...last day de n i was song leading ler...
everything went well le... thks to my musicians *renee, joshua, oliver n javern*...
was cool ler coz i called the campers to the front for praise n worship ler... since last day de...
then, more syok mer do something different...hehe :P
wilson conducted the morning session again... n we attended a BGR workshop le...
was kinda interesting yet funny le...
ahhh... n so here it is...prize giving time...
our group THe ReD HaWKs... won 1st placing....from the front,k...
so nice...was really the team work n God's spirit in us le...
n the saddest part... we had to leave de...
was quite sad ler... coz we might not know when we will all gather together again...
n we might not meet each other anymore le... *sobs*

so that was it le... came back to the shop with clairissa who waited for her father...
after that, i kinda slept le... was super tired n exhausted...
oOoOo... i forgot to mention that the toilet was super creepy...
when u open the door the lights will suddenly go on and when you get out from the toilet the lights will turn off by itself...freeky n creepy at the same time...
actually, got some sensor thingy le... quite canggih oso le...
i was oni knew bout this on the 3rd day...haha :)

well, heard that the concert was great le...
am not gonna be sad coz i am goin for the SYDNEY HILLSONG CONCERT soon!!!
must confess le... n pray alot alot.... *nyek nyek >.<*
i hope that tmrw's praise n worship will be awesome after the experience of the concert le...
its also by God's spirit oso le...cant depend on human strength alone...

thats all for today... tune in for mre exciting stories soon...
have a great day n God bless you!!!

CAMP!!!!! TODAY!!!!!

YIPEE YIPEE YAY YAY!!!!

well, its tuesday already...super fast lo...

n i will be goin for camp later this afternoon...for 3 days ler...

so all my loyal readers dont miss me yea... *i noe u will -->perasan*

nyek nyek..

yesterday, we (jeremy, juven, melissa, veryn, viviEn n me---->according to alphebetical order ) went for a movie...

The Chronicals of Narnia... it was a super nice n cool show ler...

donno why ivan neoh so bad in judging say the show was boring...

it was awesome ler the show... all of u who havent watch yet, better dont miss the show...

i totally love the lil rat in the movie le...so CUTE!!! hahax :)

n ppl pls dont buy cetak rompak wan DVD yea... must support ori punya stuff mer...

hehe :P

well, i have to go now... see ya guys in another 3 more days!!!

>>>>>VROOOOOMMMM>>>> off to camp!!!

On HoLiDay MoDe!!!!

wohoo... its holiday de but for 2 weeks oni ler... good enuff...
anyway, to start the hols. today my church fwens n i are goin for a movie...
actually i am not sure who is goin oso le...but who cares rite...
can go out watch movies with fwens can de ler...
we are probably gonna watch NARNIA!!!
we are splitting into 2 groups ler... one watching narnia n another group watch indiana jones...
cool ler... so nice to start a holiday...

hahahaha.... i am getting over the fact that i am not goin for hillsong concert...
n in God's will n perfect time... n i confess...
that i can get free tickets to HILLSONG SYDNEY!!!! woohooo....
as viviEn say ' now u cry ler...but when u go for the sydney one we pulak cry'...hehe :P
so starting now i have to pray real hard n confess that i am so gonna go for the sydney concert...
so those who always show off that u goin to the concert dont cry yea if i go for the sydney one...
anyway, camp is like TMRW... i so cant wait...hehe :)
just imagine all the fun we are gonna have during the camp...
i still think that the camp should be like 4 days 3 nites...but too bad its oni 3 days 2 nites :(
if longer better lo... can enjoy longer mer...

well, the sad part of hols are that have to study oso... T.T *sobs*
n imagine after the hols.. we are getting our mid-term exam results.... *bang head on wall*
dang... i shall confess that i am so gonna ACE all my papers...AMEN!!! Hallelujah praise the Lord!!!
sumore our choir comp has been tunda to the 12 of June... just rite after hols...
n the quite sad thing is that we are having pracs on the second week of hols... *haih*
but look at the bright side... we can enjoy the hols singing with all our brilliant frens... *FUN*
so pls wish our school choir the best of luck ler for the comp...
ohh... n its held at dewan sri pinang... *syok-nessss*

thats bout it ler bout my hols... serious boredom compared to the other ppl who are travelling ler...
anyway, i am happy wif wat i got ler... *nyek nyek*
Have a pleasent n great HOLIDAY to all the students n teachers of malaysia...
buh-bye... tune in for more exciting news....

ITS OVER!!

it is finally OVER!!!!
n it is finally here...all of u... i now announce that
I AM FREE!!!hehe :P from exams ler for the moment...
but not for long...so i have to enjoy my 2 weeks of hols to the FULLEST!!!
ppl out there who are goin for movies pls dont hesitate to invite me yar...
cant wait for camp too... its oni 3 more days to go...
n its also 4 more days to hillsong concert ler... T.T *dont talk bout it*

well, today i sort of embarrassed myself in front of a few teachers ler...
*ask me if u wan more info on it*
anyway, we got our chem marks today just after the sickening bio 3 paper...
so low ler my marks but i sort of like noe i will fail this test ler...hehe :P
i am well prepared n i noe wat my marks will look like ler *shades of RED*

well, its a very short post compared to all the other postings i posted last time ler...
anyway, would like to share a joke wif u ppl...

after a teacher had concluded his teaching on the right use of English words, one student approached n challenged him.
student : i bet you teacher that you can't use the word 'because' three times consecutively in a sentence.
teacher: is that a challenge?
student: yes, it is.
teacher: alrite... you cannot make a sentence with the word 'because' because 'because' is a conjunction. You lose...

*hehe :P -this joke really is funny... i got the joke oni after reading it for 10 times...haha :P
if u dont get it pls read again...harhar :D

Have a great day then...
hear from me soon... take care n GBU :)

WoW WoW o_O

hehe...wow wow...
hmm...quite random post ler today...
i did quite badly for bio today...
julie u gonna belanja me makan ice cream de..hahaz :]
out of 7 questions... i oni can answer one sub-que in one ques... so sien...
but the best thing is tmrw is the last paper..yahoo!!!
cant wait for the holidays... hehe...

there were a few other bad stuff that happened to me today ler...
our school choir cant sing the song we practised n chosed :(
so sad le... choir comp. is like in 3 weeks time n we havent got a song to sing...
how ler now... now have to sing a song which most of us hated n the song seriously bring back loads of bad memories ler...
haiz... for the sake of the comp. :(
n got sumore bad stuff which really hurt me feelings ler... *emo again*
haiz... seriously dont know wert i talkin bout oso...haha :P

anyway, just to update update u ppl ler...
okie ler... have to prepare for ttn de...
arigato kozaimas for reading his random n stupid post...haha :)
have a great n awesome day!!!

its like so sickening nia...

argh...finally i am emo =.=''...
super emo-ness filling into me, man.... argh someone pls HELP!!!!
i am so deep down sad le...
talking bout it already makes me kinda sad de...
fine...i will say it...
I CAN'T GO TO HILLSONG CONCERT!!!!
[i am goin crazy de... talking to myself]
its just the fact that i myself cant accept ler...
n ppl pls stop asking me why... it really sinks me again...
the reason is that i have to attend some CF camp la...
n to get over the concert thingy... i will confess this everyday till the camp comes...
I WILL ENJOY MYSELF AT CAMP!!!!
hahaz... its sort of a challenge for me as well coz most of my fwens who are goin for the camp are non-christians...
so.. its time for us christians to reach out to them...
n i shud take hold of this chance or so-called responsibility to reach out to them ler...
pls pray n hope that i can bring some frens to noe who Jesus really is...
plus i am serving there in camp sumore...

so ppl who are goin to the concert... if u ever read this portion...
GET ME A CD AND BROOKE N JOEL'S AUTOGRAPHS!!!!
argh... i finally said it...hahax :]
this is my only wish..pls grant this wish to a lil innocent young girl *innocent eyes with angelic wings*

exams are goin ok ler... not that bad n not that good ler...
3 more papers to go n i will be free...
the best part is once after i finish my papers...i am serving again...hehe :P
the greatest thing o do after examz... SERVE GOD!!!

n finally, i watched transformers...haha... i am so totally outdated ler...
plus i watched ah long n p.s. i love you...
mich yeoh *the actress* u really have to watch the show...
n the show p.s. i love you is super emo-ing for me *sobs*
i will never watch this show again... it makes me kill more trees...haha :P

thats kinda all for today le...
sorry, for not updating till now la coz my internet connection was down n plus my CPU went ka-boom...
haha :P
see ya ppl soon.... take care!!!!

ITS SATURDAY!!!!

yipee... finally a day to get some rest after a week of indescribable exams...
phew... one week over, two more weeks to go...hahax :P
even though one week is over but most of the science papers all done and over with de...
not so stress le like the first week... hehe :]
am quite tired after a sum of oni 20 hours of sleep last week...
the min. amount of time that i use to sleep is around 56 hours...
i sleep at least 8 hours a day,ok... if ur maths aint that good le...

well, this exam week was really a great n fantastic week for me...
i sort of 'chiak cho eok' - makan salah ubat... or 'bo chaik eok' - tak makan ubat...
was totally stressed up n feel like jumping off a rooftop...*dont worry i dont do it in reality*
i actually was quite wacko n hyper the past few days le... *want more info ask my school frens*
am so totally not gonna regret for not studying...
i am seriously gonna 'SCORE A's' for my exams...hehe :P *think positive*

so tmrw is like... wat day ar???
sunday the 11th of may le... swt le me =.=...
yea rite... its MOTHER'S DAY!!!!
so to all my fellow daughters out there *u noe who u are... dont pretend u dont noe*
better remember to buy me anything that is edible n i dont wan flowers,k...
i have always been a loving mother... n now its the day when i can be pempered by my daughters...*giggles of happiness*

hmmm... was reading Rev. George Ong's humour books... SUPER DUPER FUNNY....
i hope thru reading these books it wont make me make lamer jokes next time...haha :X
his preaching was super funny le... really a great book to read...
i was actually shocked to see my mom purchasing the entire set of 12 books...
unbelievable * it still shocks me O_o *

anyways, will be updating soon le i guess... *quite addicted to blogs - thk God its not drugs*
hear from me soon... tataz :D

i FELL in LOVE!!!

*stare at the title again*
to my readers out there pls dont think nonsensical stuff la...
if u arent, thks for supporting n believing that i am always single n unavailable for good reasons...
unavailabe doesnt mean that i already have a BF or wat so ever la...
it means that i DONT wanna get into a relationship yet...

ok... who am i in love with again??? *gladz, how cud u forget!!! *doosh*
haha... its my guitar i am talking about...
its been a while since i even lifted it up n cuddle it...
ever since i joined the guitar lesson thing in church, kinda got hooked le to my guitar...
but all of a sudden...lessons stopped *vanished into thin air*
kinda sad le... so the interest kinda gone le =.=
then these few weeks back i got back the passion to play the guitar...
so nice... n i cant believe that i just chuck it next to my bed n din say goodnite to it everytime i go to bed...
saddening... but its the fact...haha :P
so u pro guitar ppl pls help me to excel in me playing...
i am still noob-ish le... still nt exposed to alot of different styles n stuff like that...
i actually want to thk renee yong 'tau foo' for helping me out on the guitar...
n one of my hotties, stephy... thks for teaching me different chord le n some songs...
arigato kozaimas to u ppl... muax muax!!!

-----back to school-----
finally an update after the stressful nites...
exams are going on 'well'... *not quite*
but must confess wat is good... so exam went fantastically well even though oni a few papers done nia...
this week is hactic le... from chem to phy to add math to math n tmrw i will be facing the 'friendly-est' paper...
HISTORY!!! argh- iamgine how 'fun' to study history...
*gladys u are doin good- keep on confessing wat is good*
next week at least can relax a bit cos mostly are language papers... hehe :P
well, i bought FREE de...*this sentence feels weird-- how do u buy something that is free???*
hehe... the album FREE le... by planetshakers...
i am still pumping my ears with the music from the album... as the cat *miau* say "it is worth buying"...
i agree le with the cat... haha :P
am so looking forward for hols... 2 more weeks to go...
imagine all the movies i will be watching... *it feels like heaven*
dont be jealous le u ppl who are working de... haha :]
wont be blogging any sooner... until my 'lovely' exams come to end then it will be FREEDOM!!!
i will so so totally 'miss' exams... hehe :]

okie le... signing off to go hug me history book de..
tataz ppl...

diSSaPoiNtmeNtZ 'n' ReSpOnsiBiLitiEs!!!

hmmm... i seem to be nagging my readers alot these couple of times...
all like advise le but it sounds like i am scolding u ppl or something...
i sometimes read me postings n cant even imagine that i am the one writing all these rants...
i dont even classify them as rants le... sort of advise to me n the ppl of this entire world...
haiz, enjoy the music that i am gonne play for u...
it might get bored but isten to it open-mindedly...

-----------diSSaPoiNteD iN yOu--------
well, i viewed a christian friend's blog a few days ago n it really hurted my spirit to see n read such stuff...
i aint that close to this person but i truly felt for him... its utter dissapointment showing up in front of the comp..
i cant believe someone like him would just slip away from God...
imagine all the sacrifises that God made n fun times u had with God n u just let it go just like that...
its not fair for God... u are hurting Him so deeply dont u see that...
cant u see all the hurdles that the devil has put in front of u... open ur big goo-goo eyes le...
all the busy-ness... playing dota, watching football till late at nite... wat benefit those all this stuff bring u???
the next day, u end up waking up late n its just an excuse to skip church...
do u think God is happy with u... cant u see that God is testing ur walk n faith in Him...
haiz... i am so so sad to see a friend just glide away from Him...
u were so close to Him back in Pg. last time or were u just faking all the 'i am holy' stuff in front of us back then..
even if ur spirit is dry, u should continue on going to church...
find the reason... the main reasons u are going to church...
n i hope that the main reasons are to be with God... to see Him n feel close to Him...
dont just give up knowing that God still puts His hope on u...
so darn dissapointed le...
no matter wat happens, dont give up hope... continue on... barge in...
PLS!!! I BEG U FOR UR OWN GOOD... GO TO CHURCH!!!

---------aRe u ResPonSiBle eNuff??--------
have been facing some responsibility break down... *chuan tua khooi*
i am so dissapointed in me, myself n i...
am i the one that isnt responsible or is it u???
i am confused le... u might just feel that i have been bugging u for some stuff...
its just that i wanna complete my stuff n duties le...
dont just chuck me aside while u too are also holding the responsibility for the things that we are doin...
i am just helping...
i just dont get it at times... i might be pushy at time but its the best for both of us...
pls le take up ur responsibility... i dont wanna clean up all your mess at the end of the day...

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blah-ness...
hmmm... as u can see the day n time of this blog...
i aint at school...reason??? wanna study but wat am i doin now... BLOGGING!!!
utter dissapointment =.= ...
yesterday was so darn bored... i din even lift up my book n jumble the alphabets in them...
i was in front of the idiotic rectangular box watching some shows...
n also listening to i heart over n over again... sien-ness lo...
i just simply cant lift up the book...
anyone has a formula that i can rmbr then i dont have to study...
haiz... boo on me...
wish me luck in my exams...pls pray for mua...
to all me loyal readers... i must put a stop to my blogging for a few weeks...
do miss me yea... my deepest apologies...

tataz ppl... arigato kozaimas for reading...
Have a magnificent day n God bless ya :D